Anything about Everything

  At the beginning of this year, I was a bright eyed ball of energy. Now? I’m still bright eyed but I am worn down. This year taught me A LOT about the types of people I want/have in my life and how that effects my energy.  I no longer hold space for negative, miserable people. In any capacity, in any scenario. Work, personal… no energy for that nonsense. I started to let things go - even if they hurt me to my core.  I learned that I don’t have to address every comment or accusation. I learned that people are going to make their assumptions about my life based on what fits their narratives. I learned that I can’t please everyone and shouldn’t bother to stress over it anymore. I learned that I was taken advantage of for many years and still came out the bad guy, so that situation taught me no matter how I treat people, they will make up their own opinions.  I changed my energy and feelings around money. I used to have such a bad relationship with it - and while it’s n...

I am someone who does not often wish for things to change. They happen the way they happen, as life is a constant flow of energies and actions.  If I had to pick something to change from this year, it would have to be how I second guessed myself and overthought everything while I went through this summer's debacle. I am someone who worries about how everyone around me feels, how they will react, and how things will progress. I know a lot of that comes from my abandonment issues - because I don't want anyone to leave.  I learned this year that it's 100% okay to live your life how you want to. It is YOUR life, no one else has to live with your choices but you. I am not someone who catalogs every breath of my life or post for attention (I used to!). What I choose to share with my friends, family, and social media following could be different. It's my choice.  Not standing up for myself, and overthinking every move I made this summer was probably what I wish I had done diff...

  November's challenge was such a success, that I have decided to continue with December prompts.  I am in shock that November is over and the final month of 2021 starts TOMORROW. Time flies - whether you're having fun or not.  I am going to take the December prompts and share just as I have for November, but will focus more on reflection and future casting. I am very much into living a life that is full, and hope to share some tips and tricks I have learned over the years to do just that.  This blog started as, and will always be, a place where anyone can come and find that they are not alone - in whatever they are struggling or working through. I do not put this out there to toot my own horn, or make myself appear superior, or try to take away from the magnitude of the things I have been through in my life. I put this blog out to share awareness on issues that may be a bit taboo to discuss, but also to create a safe space for anyone who needs it.  I have never...

This weekend was crazy busy, but crazy rewarding too.  As most of you know, my parents have lived in North Carolina for 3 years now (as of last week!), so my brother and I do not get to see them as often as we would like. If only airfare wasn't SO damn expensive, I'd make bi-weekly weekend trips!  So my parents came up Friday and left yesterday. Quick visit, but jam packed with stuff! I don't think any of us went to bed before midnight any night this weekend - so out of character for us.  It's hard to pinpoint the best moment of the weekend. My parents met one of my closest, best friends, her husband, and their daughter - FINALLY after 3 years of close, true friendship! My mom got to meet my other best friend's son, dad got to visit with a friend he hasn't seen in a while - and the four of us got to uphold our long standing Father's Day tradition (a few weeks early).  We were able (for the second year in a row) to get dad his steamers at the bea...

Day 17 of 30 It's funny that today's topic is highs and lows of the last year.  When I was a Resident Assistant my sophomore and junior year of college, our weekly staff meetings usually started with highs and lows of the week. Usually, the staff meetings were held on Thursday evenings, so this is just adorable. The last 365 days (May 17, 2017 to May 18, 2018) have been full of growth (both personal and professional), life changes, loss, victories, and dreaming one size too big.  2017 was a really REALLY weird year for my family. As I have discussed in the past, we lost 3 family members on the same side of the family within 6 months of each other. Having experienced something so earth shattering certainly put a damper on the year. But it also helped in relationship growth within the family and with close friends. We learned a lot about each other as a family unit, shared so many wonderful stories about my grandparents and my uncle, and truly made the best of a ...

This post is not a part of the 30 day challenge - but it IS a 30 day post.  30 days ago, I embarked on a new journey in my professional career. I took a chance on myself to improve my mental health, my professional mentality, and my overall view on life. For the last 3 and a half years, I was stuck in a mundane, depressive routine that was not allowing my personal growth to truly flourish. I was negative all the time, constantly crying, emotionally binge eating, and on what most call a downward spiral. I had no self confidence, couldn't care less how I presented myself to society, and honestly felt so alone and abandoned that I just stayed home in bed most weekends. I knew something had to change, and FAST. I am almost 30 for crying out loud, and I was stuck in this miserable cycle. I would spend 3 out of 5 nights a week sobbing on the phone to my mom, who at 800 miles away could do nothing but tell me it was all going to be alright, to keep fighting. Having fought for as l...