Truths Change With Time

 At the beginning of this year, I was a bright eyed ball of energy. Now? I’m still bright eyed but I am worn down. This year taught me A LOT about the types of people I want/have in my life and how that effects my energy. 

I no longer hold space for negative, miserable people. In any capacity, in any scenario. Work, personal… no energy for that nonsense. I started to let things go - even if they hurt me to my core. 

I learned that I don’t have to address every comment or accusation. I learned that people are going to make their assumptions about my life based on what fits their narratives. I learned that I can’t please everyone and shouldn’t bother to stress over it anymore. I learned that I was taken advantage of for many years and still came out the bad guy, so that situation taught me no matter how I treat people, they will make up their own opinions. 

I changed my energy and feelings around money. I used to have such a bad relationship with it - and while it’s not perfect, I’m on my way. Budgeting and planning have been super helpful. Rather than commenting on how much something costs, I look at how it would make me feel, and see how that triggers feelings. 

I learned that life hardly ever goes to plan. I had plans to buy a condo this summer and become an adult. Instead, I was blessed with an adorable apartment and the opportunity to live with Mike. A situation I thought I would need to wait for another year before it would happen. 

How have I changed since the beginning of the year? Well.. while I feel a bit underprepared for my new job next year as First Lady… I’m not scared of it anymore. I have the best support system behind me, and anyone who says otherwise doesn’t even register on my radar anymore. 

I am beyond blessed with every lesson I learned this year. Some of them weren’t lessons I anticipated I’d have this year. Some of them were curveballs. But at the end of 2021, I am happy to share that I’m no longer the same doormat I was at the beginning of the year. I’m better for it, and cannot wait to see what 2022 holds!