Anything about Everything

  Next year, I would like to see more dedication in the following areas of my life:  - more journaling - more healthy choices - more time in the Word - more organization - more reading Let's start from the top, shall we? More Journaling I started journaling big time once I started therapy 3 years ago. I thought it was a bunch of BS, that it wouldn't help, and actually wrote it off for a long time. Once I committed to getting better mentally and emotionally, I hardly missed a day of writing. People think journaling is a "dear diary" act, and I am here to tell you that THAT is bullshit. Writing out our inner most thoughts helps us PROCESS them, which is why it's so important. I was having a very difficult time processing anything before I started therapy. Once I started to write it all out, knowing no one else would read it, and got HONEST with myself, I started to heal so much. When everything went south this summer, I lost my routine. Part of that routine was writ...

Just doing a check in here - how's everyone doing? I know it's a scary, unsettled time, and we're all at some stage of feelings. Not everyone will feel the same as you do - and that, my friends is okay! It doesn't mean those around you don't understand or don't want to hear about how you're feeling. It means we are all navigating this the best we know how with the information we are given.  When this started 10 weeks ago, I thought it would be a month long, max. I had high hopes that this was going to blow over because it was going to be contained as soon as humanly possible. Fast forward to right now and I am dead wrong. I had to process that feeling 4 weeks ago, when we were starting week 6. It was certainly not the easiest emotional journey to go through, and there were plenty of nights where I cried myself to sleep because I missed my old life. The life that would allow me to visit with friends and family without judgement from people on social media as ...

Hello there!  I apologize for my lack of attention to this blog lately. I decided to make September a month of growth and change, and it has been a rather bumpy ride. Anything worth doing/having wouldn't be easy, right?  For the last 8 months, I have been trying to get into a healthier mindset and head space that allow for complete and honest transformation. I had such a terrible 2017, that I wanted to make 2018 a million times better. I was in a dark place (as mentioned in a few posts) for so long, that seeing life in the light has been a bit terrifying. The dark place was where I felt most comfortable. I could be miserable and no one would judge me - just who I was. I decided to shake off the dark place and find a spot in the warm light. I was afraid to commit to any sort of growth because it meant leaving my comfort zone.   I was sick and tired of being blamed for other peoples misery, negativity, and overall bad energy. Sure, I had my own issues to deal w...

Sometimes in life, you just need to take a step back and reset. Disconnect from the world and get yourself back to a good space, mentally and emotionally. The last week and a half has been just that for me -  a reset and reflect chapter in my story.  I have touched upon this before in previous posts, but anxiety and depression are a part of who I am now. I do not like either of them, and try my best to push through those rough days when all the thoughts take over. In an effort to share my experience, I decided to do a little bit of an experiment surrounding possible triggers - and let me just say I SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS MONTHS AGO!  When I told my close friends and family that I was planning to shut down my social media accounts for a weekish, not ONE person in that group questioned my decision. This, in turn, helped me make the decision to just shut them down. They all supported my reasons (more to come), and applauded me for making the choice. It's hard to cut so...