Anything about Everything

I learned at a very young age that not everyone is going to like you. Not everyone is going to agree with you. Not everyone is going to support you - even if they say they do.  This isn’t necessarily A person, per say. Over the last 15 years, I have learned the hard lesson I mentioned above. I am grateful for any lessons I’ve learned because I trusted too much, or ignored red flags. I am grateful for this life I’ve made for myself, because of the path it took. I am grateful for anyone from my past that, due to their feelings or actions, forced me to level up. To get out of my comfort zone. To actually DO the work I’d been putting off. To grow into the version of myself I was meant to be. I am grateful for the friends who fell away, whether we just grew apart or had a friendship ending incident. The people who swore they were genuine and turned out to be talking behind my back. Those who swore they would be around forever and decided to disappear.  I am grateful for every perso...

  This is a tough question for me - as I often find that I am looking for what I don't like about myself than what I do like. I have always been like this - and after a few years in therapy and some self discovery, it is evident that it stems from being the overweight kid and not feeling good enough. After many years of self sabotage, toxic and negative relationships, and a ton of personal development, I like that I can accept myself for who I am right now. In this moment.  It's not exactly easy. Every day is a struggle to avoid falling back into bad habits and giving up on the work I've done so diligently in the last few years. I lost who I was because I was more worried about who liked me and if I fit into their world. When instead, I should have worried about who I was and if I fit in my own world.  We all know my hair is my pride and joy - it always has been. Getting my nails done every 2 weeks is something I love to do. My outward appearance is (normally) very import...

There has been a lot of talk lately surrounding mental health. This post may have been inspired by seeing A Star Is Born for the second time and weeping in public AGAIN. Some people roll their eyes at it, because "another story about mental health" is taking over their feeds. Well, friends, I am here to tell you that mental health is so important, it needs to be a priority for all of us.  What does that even mean? Do you take care of yourself? Or do you just run yourself ragged until you can't physically stay awake? Do you take time for you - to do something that you love and makes you feel awesome? Or do you ignore all that because everyone else needs something and you can't stop until everyone else is taken care of? Do you listen to your thoughts? Or do you ignore how you feel because you don't want to burden anyone?  I have always been that person - that takes care of everyone else before I take care of myself. I need to be sure that my friends and ...

Hello there!  I apologize for my lack of attention to this blog lately. I decided to make September a month of growth and change, and it has been a rather bumpy ride. Anything worth doing/having wouldn't be easy, right?  For the last 8 months, I have been trying to get into a healthier mindset and head space that allow for complete and honest transformation. I had such a terrible 2017, that I wanted to make 2018 a million times better. I was in a dark place (as mentioned in a few posts) for so long, that seeing life in the light has been a bit terrifying. The dark place was where I felt most comfortable. I could be miserable and no one would judge me - just who I was. I decided to shake off the dark place and find a spot in the warm light. I was afraid to commit to any sort of growth because it meant leaving my comfort zone.   I was sick and tired of being blamed for other peoples misery, negativity, and overall bad energy. Sure, I had my own issues to deal w...

We have touched upon it before, but self awareness has been a topic that not many want to address. It's scary to take a serious look into who you are, what triggers you, what brings you the utmost joy, and what you need to adjust because it's not working with the rest of your world. It's hard, because it's a journey that you need to take alone - no one can tell you what you need to address to make the positive changes - they aren't you. YOU know what YOU need to do in order to make changes, it just comes down to biting the bullet and doing it.  I get it - it's freaking terrifying. Sitting alone with yourself, a journal, a pen, and your thoughts - super scary regardless if you've done it a hundred times, or never.  Some helpful hints for you to get started (or restart if you need the reset!): What has happened in my life that prevents me from accepting positivity and happiness in my heart?  When did this happen?  Why did it happen? What can I chan...

Sometimes in life, you just need to take a step back and reset. Disconnect from the world and get yourself back to a good space, mentally and emotionally. The last week and a half has been just that for me -  a reset and reflect chapter in my story.  I have touched upon this before in previous posts, but anxiety and depression are a part of who I am now. I do not like either of them, and try my best to push through those rough days when all the thoughts take over. In an effort to share my experience, I decided to do a little bit of an experiment surrounding possible triggers - and let me just say I SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS MONTHS AGO!  When I told my close friends and family that I was planning to shut down my social media accounts for a weekish, not ONE person in that group questioned my decision. This, in turn, helped me make the decision to just shut them down. They all supported my reasons (more to come), and applauded me for making the choice. It's hard to cut so...

Happy August friends!!  This year has flown by -  and while it seems like we "only have 4 months left of the year (including August)" - we have 5 full months left of 2018! How are you going to make them the best yet? Have you been checking in with your goals and dreams? Have you made a conscious effort to make changes in your life for the better, so that you are TRULY happy? Have you reassessed your goals/plans for 2018 to make sure they are in line with where you are at right now?  You now have a blank slate, 31 days, to readjust your mindset and re-imagine how you want to spend the next 152 days. Make it a habit every day to spend time reflecting on how yesterday went, what you will get out of today, and what you hope for tomorrow. EVERY SINGLE DAY friends. Get a nice journal (target has great ones), and start writing. Seeing goals and intentions in writing helps the universe make it happen. For example... If you're a part of my close circle, you k...

You have a choice, every single day. Are you going to be happy? Or are you going to let the constant negativity and misery around you be your life?  When it comes to self love and self discovery, a lot of the time people will fall off your radar. These people may be friends, family, someone you're interested in. If you find that your energy is vibrating much more positive into the universe while on this journey WITHOUT these people in your life, it's okay. Sometimes, you need to distance yourself to work on you and find your passion, your drive, yourself. This does not necessarily mean these people have been written off for good.  Here's the deal: you are allowed to cut off anyone that makes you feel less than fantastic on the daily. If you're surrounded by constant negativity, constant misery it might  be time to change some things. If you're constantly wondering if you're enough, if your presence is important to anyone - GET YOURSELF INTO A BETTER PLA...