Day 20 - What is One Of Your Personality Traits You Are Thankful For?

 

Personality trait I'm thankful for... this was a head scratcher.

I would have to say my open minded-ness. Does it count as a personality trait? We'll allow it for the purpose of this post. 

I am always up for trying something new - especially when it comes to food. I am always open to hearing other sides of stories without judging. I am never one to judge someone for choices they made or opinions they have.

And I think that bothers people.

See, my view on the world is different. EVERYONE has a differing view on the world. How you handle something traumatic that happens to you is how YOU handle it, not how everyone else should. How I view issues that arise in my life and process them is very different than anyone I know.. including my closest friends.

No one on this earth has the same experience as someone else. How we perceive the world is just that - how WE perceive it. Life is the way it is for you because it's how YOU perceive it. Profound if you think about it right?! 

I am always up for new experiences in life, because I want to enjoy my life. I lived in the pit of misery for a VERY long time - and that was not only emotionally and mentally draining, it got boring fast. I expected everyone around me to take care of me, to boost my ego, to cater to my every whine. I had a warped sense of who I was and what I should feel. After a lot of loss in my life, I decided it was time to get help - but I was TERRIFIED.

What if I'm judged? What if it doesn't work out? What if I break more than I already have and can't get back to normal? What if I am shunned by friend because I decided to seek help?

SPOILER ALERT: No one gives a shit if you're seeing a therapist. That is YOUR business. 

Therapy works. 

Had I not gone in with an open mind, I would have been immediately closed off, while making snap judgements that they are going to tie my abandonment issues to my last relationship (they aren't from that), or that my binge eating problem is because I didn't have any discipline with food growing up (also not true). What I did learn was that being HONEST will get answers. That I may have to repeat the story a few times before something clicks, but therapy won't work unless I do. 

 As a society, we are so quick to closing our minds and hearts off to possibilities that could change our lives. Instead, we find one narrative we like, and we ride that till we die. What if you try and fail? Oh, you get back up and try a new way. If you don't try, you'll never know. 

Do yourself a favor and do something you're terrified to do. Something that will change your life. Could be therapy for the third time, or applying for a job you've always wanted, or sliding into someone's DMs.. anything. 

Just do it. Try it. And see if you don't experience a beautiful growth in your life.