Someone Put This Dumpster Fire Out - PLEASE

 

Whew - we made it! It's finally the end of what we can all agree was a dumpster fire of a year. 

As we enter 2021 with a lot of uncertainty, I hope you are proud of yourself for finishing this year. It started off okay - I mean we had 2 solid months of real life before things started to shut down right in front of us. 

2020 wasn't all bad. If you know me personally, you know that I am someone who thrives off being busy and constantly moving around. This year really forced me to slow down, to embrace the fact that I am not in control of a lot, and to be present. As hard as this year has been, I am forever grateful for it. It was a year I didn't know I needed. 

I know I posted about it earlier this year - how the best investment you can make is in yourself - and I firmly stand by that. I am someone who carries a lot of burdens  (some aren't even mine.. how kind!) and this year allowed me to step back and process a lot of the burdens and trauma in my life. I gave myself the permission and space to appropriately address things in my life that I have been carrying, and release them. 

We are all so focused on tomorrow - but what about today? 

If there is anything this year taught me - it was to slow down and appreciate what's in front of me. The people, the smells, the sights, all of it. Being present takes practice, for sure! We as a society are so laser focused on putting out the best version of our lives on social media that we forget to take some time for us. STOP IT! (I mean that with love)

I hope in 2021 you are able to continue the slow down. To embrace the quiet. To heal your heart and wounds no one knows about. To open your hearts to the incredible possibilities that are available to you. To accept yourself as you are along your journey to your idea of perfect. To allow yourself the time to reach your goals and crush them with all you have. To take up healthy habits that give your life what we call green zone energy instead of constant misery. To drink your water, eat relatively well (80/20 baby!), and get your sleep.

If there is one thing I can pull from 2020 that was amazing - I wouldn't be able to. I would need to list a top 3.. so, here we go. 

1. A low key bachelorette party that was literally planned on a pivot.

One of my best friends was supposed to get married this year, and thanks to the climate of the world we were not able to celebrate that this year. The weekend she was supposed to get married, we threw her a bachelorette party here in Massachusetts and it was amazing! We had original plans to go away to Vermont, but that fell through so the bridesmaid had to band together and make it perfect for her. We did our best! Seeing her smile and enjoying time together with that group of friends in the middle of a pandemic was definitely a highlight of my year! We had a medium/psychic come and while I was SUPER nervous at first - it was an incredible session that allowed two years of an open wound to start to heal. 

2. Travelled to Utah to spend 5 days with 44 women I had never met in person before

This... literally changed my life. I have talked at great length about my involvement with network marketing, the struggles I had, and how I felt so incredibly aligned with the company I partnered with. When I got back on the plane in Vegas (we drove 2 hours from the airport to UT.. it was cheaper and direct!), I felt an intense shift in my gut. I was finally able to shed the 8 years of self sabotage I had been carrying around. I was able to be myself and not worry about what ANYONE said or felt about me. My business saw a huge shift as well, and at the time I am posting this one of the two goals I declared has been achieved! It is more than just a product - but when I say it's the best stuff I have ever used - I am NOT lying! 

3. Because I gave myself the permission to be myself - I finally learned who is meant to stay in my circle.

You know that I am an incredibly loyal person - and often go back to toxic relationships because I want to see the good in people. Because I always gave people the benefit of the doubt. When I finally stepped into my truth and allowed myself the space to feel how I actually felt - I felt my circle closing. I felt people falling away that I swore would never betray my trust, or walk away from (what I thought was) a good friendship. I let go of one of my dearest friends this year - and while it was a lot to process - man do I feel so much more at peace! 

I pray that your 2021 is far more exciting than 2020 - but I also pray that you see who you truly are and stop living for everyone else. Stop living for the 'gram. Stop living a life that someone else expects you to live. Embrace who YOU are, share your gifts, and for the love of god be kind to each other. If there's a problem - TALK TO THE PERSON YOU HAVE AN ISSUE WITH. We aren't in grade school anymore people. Talking about others behind their back because of an issue you can resolve by communicating with them - thats some elementary school shit. Knock it off. Tell your people you love them - often. If this year taught us anything, it's that we can lose people at the drop of a hat. 

2020 was for SURE a CF. But if we came out stronger than we went in, in March ... we're winning y'all. 

Thank you for following along this journey - there will be MUCH more content next year, and I can't wait to share it with you! I wish you and yours a very happy and healthy new year!